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What Does That MEAN?! (A TRUE story)

Diazepam

“Ooh, my turn; my turn.”  I quickly raise my hand for the free massage my co-worker is giving away in the break room.  And she’s really good.  I suggest she get certified and knead necks and shoulders for a living; she says she’s been thinking about it.

Anyway, there’s one problem.  She keeps telling me to relax. I shrug and say in what I’ve been told is one of the most soft-spoken voices ever, “But I am relaxed; this is as calm as it gets.”

She shakes her head.  “You’re extremely tense, all in your arms.”  Then she looks at me and asks, “You sure you’re relaxed, because I see a bulging vein on the side of your head.  You grind your teeth, too, don’t you?”

How does she know!  The dentist has chiseled me FOUR times already.  And I don’t even realize I clench and grind.

I sit there, speechless.  I mean, three nurses and a doctor said the same thing prior to a surgery.  I went in, as calm as I knew how on a level 9 of pain, and the first thing dude suggested was Valium.

Two Valium later, I was still awake, still crying (softly mind you, not boo-hooing), and still asking questions.  By the time they wheeled me into OR, a tech said, “We’ve got a nervous one here.”

Excuse me but I was NOT nervous.

I simply laid on the gurney, crying softly.  Who wouldn’t upon their first major surgery.  (My past c-section doesn’t count because I blacked out and wouldn’t have known heaven from earth if asked.)

Anyway, I’m reminded to chill all the time, even when I’m not verbally saying anything, even when I’m oblivious to the cues and clues that I’m not…chilling.

What does that word mean–relax?  Maybe I should look it up, or take a class.  I mean, I never raise my voice; I never outwardly panic; I rarely get angry…I’m calm, right?  Isn’t calm the same as relaxed?

 

* WHAT IS YOUR OPINION.  HOW DO YOU DEFINE THE TWO?

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2011 Nano winner 2009 special mention in Writer's Journal for "Silent Words" Poet, avid reader, lover of art, average Jane

4 thoughts on “What Does That MEAN?! (A TRUE story)

  1. I know exactly what you are talking about. I carry all of my stress in my neck and shoulders. A really good deep tissue massage will do wonders for you, but you still have to find that place of peace that permeates every cell of your being.

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  2. You and I ARE very similar! My chiropractor chastises me all of the time and tries various tricks to get me loosened up. Not sure what it means to relax, either.

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    1. OMG, I called my chiropractor yesterday! He was booked though. I must wait until Monday. And he never can pop a certain spot in my back b/c he says I’m too “tense.” He always has to use those gadgety tools. LOL Here’s to us. May we learn to relax:-)

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