“Please let me get what I want, I’m begging you.” This guy could never understand, never know what it feels like to love someone and have to let go; because if he did he’d relent.
His firm stance and folded arms tell me I need another tactic. I consider ambush, but I don’t have the energy. I close my eyes, release a breath, and try again. “Can’t I have five minutes? I just want to see Paul,” I say.
No doubt this is what nurses and doctors witness every day—frantic, desperate people, with their plea bargains and threats, people who want nothing more than to spend eternity with those behind the doors of this facility.
“Fine.” The man in navy scrubs says as he removes his gloves. His voice is weary, his eyes are bloodshot.
I take a step forward, relieved he’s finally softened, that he realizes how important this time is, even though visiting hours ended at 8:30 and it’s 8:36. But as I attempt to go around him, he stops me and suggest I sit. I don’t want to sit. Paul needs me.
A wail erupts from someone’s throat. The sound echoes down the hall as a hand squeezes my shoulder, or possibly my chest. So many hands—on me, on Paul. Pushing and pushing.
A grief counselor? Is that who the guy in the navy scrubs said he was sending? Have I really been here that long, in this lobby?
“How are you feeling?”
I’ve never understood that question, never understood time for that matter. Like, how we think we have forever when we barely have today. Or how it feels as though my heart has broken in two.
This super short story came from prompt #500 in the book, Lost the Plot? 500 Writing Prompts and How to Use Them, by Adam Maxwell.